Rose

The rose has those thorns that make you almost want to give up from plucking the flower.

I wonder if I’ll love again.

I feel as if I have lost but she’s returned but I’ll never have her like that again.

And she doesn’t even want to be with me

So why should I believe in love?

Why should I even try?

I feel like being left alone and slowly rotting as I lose everything around me

I’ve never understood the “if I can’t have you” side of things till it got this intense and I no longer can see myself getting through those thorns to once again feel the water dripping off the petals against my cheek

She doesn’t want me, she’s going to get married while I sit here as the love of my life leads a life without me

I can’t move on when all I want is her..

It’s been three years and still I lay baron without her

When you cut the top off of a rose like a hydra it will grow again from the roots

And she’s been cut so many times

I just want to be the one to let her grow

I am the gardener who can’t tend to his rose bud

I just want her

I try to go on dates but I can’t I feel blocked

As a gardener I know which plants specifically that I wish to grow

And unfortunately adding another I know that I’ll never love it to my full capacity

There will be weeks where it’ll never get watered

Because I will only stare at that single rose bud that will never be mine

Those thorns have never been a problem even when I bleed so

I want to show that I can provide all that she needs to be happy and me by her side happy to she her growth

Chances never seem to come my way though

And as those chances never come to my soil that refuses to keep other seeds from growing

Here I am crying on my weeds that keep me from growing anything that is in my garden

So the question is asked…

Will I be able expand my resources and provide those other seeds to be grown?